Tonight I'm not feeling like myself. I'm a little down, and feeling very disconnected. It sucks. M is back to working lots of evenings, and I am getting busier with DT. I still feel like something is missing - balance. Last night I was on a DT conference call all about balancing family, work and life in general. I thought I was doing okay, but have realized I have a long way to go, and a lot to fit in. Friends, exercise, me, us, kids, us, life, cleaning, cooking... the list goes on. And friends is striking a sad spot with me right now - I had a great visit and coffee with a new friend tonigh, and realize how little I see my friends. Does this make me a bad friend? Am I still a friend? Ugh. Ugh. Ugh. Another thing is that in the spring, I set myself a goal with DT, and have not come close to acheiving it, and this is also getting me down. Blergh - yes, blergh. And to top it off, I'm fat and not happy about it. I know I need to work out, but there is so much else I have to do, and it keeps getting put off. At least I am eating much, much healthier. I planned meals for two weeks, and have only strayed from my plan once!

Okay, my pity party is done, and I feel a little better (and slightly silly) after my venting. Now for some funny stuff.

Last night Keegan had a nightmare - he said it was about aliens. So I pictured alien attacks, scary aliens, zombies... no, not even close! My darling boy said he was scared and sad because the door on the aliens ship was stuck so they couldn't get out. Ha! I love my darling boy.

Now I'm going to head upstairs and cuddle my baby boy, who I'm hoping is sleeping, and not having a party in my bed!

** And on that note, a cuddle with my sleeping boy made me feel so much better about everything **

Goodnight all :)