Goals and Guilt

This past weekend, I was in Langley for the DT Kick Off! It was amazing, I learned so much, and came away totally empowered to go for my goals. But I also came away with huge "mommy guilt"! I love my boys so So SO much! And when I saw their smiling, screeching faces as I pulled up to the house yesterday, it was great! I realized how much I had missed them, and also realized that I had a stamping class tonight, so I was going to miss another evening with them - ugh. And then this morning, Keegan was almost in tears getting ready for daycare, because he was just not feeling great, a little sad, and just wanted more time to cuddle. But we were busy, and late, and had. to. go. So as I drove away (Keegan with Myles, Riley with me) I felt awful and so guilty. Do I really need to go tonight, do I? I know I could miss it, and it would be okay, but this is my night that I get once a month, with other moms, to connect and feel like me. Does this make me a bad mom? Is it wrong that I need a night out in adult company once in a while... While I keep wrestling with this, I will share my goals with you all.

At Kick Off, we all had to make our "dream boards" which take our dreams, and make them visual goals. We also had to email our leaders with our goals this morning, and doing that was SO scary! Wow, when I wrote them out, they became real! I know that I can achieve them, but now I'm accountable, and I HAVE to do it. So here we go:

• January 1st 2011, I will be an Educational Leader with Discovery Toys (this means more sales needed and new team members needed)
• July 1st I will be a Team Leader with Discovery Toys - this will be just in time for our convention in Las Vegas, so I will get to walk across the stage as a new TL!!!
• On that note, lose weight (healthily) so that I can get a new size 14 dress for convention
• And my biggest goal: I will be home with Keegan after school - so September 1st 2011, I will be working at least 10 hours less per week.

Whew...